We have been renting this house for four years, since we moved back from the Austin area. We had planned to only be here a few months, and then move back down there. Of course, it didn’t work out that way.
Shortly after we got here, I ruptured a disk in my back, from which I am still healing. I was flat on my back for months. I 
have always been able to force my body to keep moving, but not this time. My Angels told me it was time to take care of me for a change, so they forced me to slow down.
I spent two years being a ‘why baby’.
Why did this happen to me?
Why did we have to move back here?
Why wouldn’t the pain stop?
And, so many more ‘why’s’.
When my best friend’s father died, I realized why I had to come back here. I had to be here for her, to help her through her grief. That was the answer to one of my ‘why’s’, and helped me to realize that, yes, there is always a reason that things happen as they do.
Another answer came when the Austin area had major flooding, with lots of people losing their homes and lives. I was glad that I was not there for that, and thanked my Angels for protecting me.
I did a lot of healing on myself, using the same techniques that I use with my clients, and finally managed to come to terms with how my body now is. I can only stand in one place for a minute before the pain in my lower back becomes intense. I can walk; very, very slowly; for about five minutes before I am in excruciating pain. Running errands, shopping and going to the doctor are painful and exhausting; even when I use my scooter. I have to force myself to leave the house, and it has to be for a good reason, or it is not worth the effort. There is no way I can do housework, so I spend most of the day veging on my laptop. That is not very productive.
About six months ago, I started taking Hyaluronic Acid and Glucosamine. I was surprised when the pain seemed a bit less. Hyaluronic Acid puts moisture back into the joints. I did some research, and found a joint formula with Glucosamine, Condroitin, MSM and other wonderful supplements for the joints. A few months ago, I started taking Moringa for pain.
One day, I noticed that I was in a little less pain than normal. Nothing major, but a tiny improvement. I did not say anything to my doctor, because it was so minor that I was not sure. I kept taking the supplements.
Last month, I realized there was obvious improvement. Still nothing major, but obvious.
We have been waiting many months for approval to do a test to see if I would benefit from having a Spinal Cord Stimulator implanted to block the pain. I guess they had just gotten approval, because the pain management doctor was not happy when I told him I wasn’t sure that I needed it anymore.
Now, a month later, I am optimistic that the pain is going to continue to improve. I still can’t walk or stand for long, but the pain is different. It is centralized in a few places, instead of everywhere. I was even able to find the right spot for my tens unit to help with the pain, which has not happened in a long time.
After all these years of thinking I was never going to get better, I AM!
Timing is everything!
I had to release enough blocks and emotions to be able to begin to release the pain. I had to be in the right mindset. I could not begin to release it until everything had lined up perfectly.
I may never be totally out of pain. I may never be able to walk any further than I do now. But, I am okay with that. I can accept my body however it chooses to present itself. I no longer feel that my body has let me down. That is a major accomplishment.
Another way that my Angels have shown me that timing is everything is through my business. I have not been able to focus on promotion, writing newsletters, or blog posts for years. I struggled and struggled to force myself.
Finally, I surrendered and Trusted that my partner and son would take care of me financially. And they have. The world did not fall apart.
Now, I am feeling more like focusing on building my business, and even making changes to it. When I have felt up to it, I have been making miniatures and fairy gardens. I am going to start sharing that with my readers. My Angels have put information in front of me about other ways to monetize my website, so I will be incorporating that. (Please click on ads when you see them!)
I am excited about my business once again, and it feels good. I may not be able to write regularly, but that is okay.
Several months ago, the owner of the house we are in was forced to make the difficult decision to sell the house. They said they would give us plenty of time to find a place to move.
We found a house that we loved and wanted to buy, but because my income does not show on a tax return, they would not give me a mortgage.
We looked and looked for something to rent, but no one would accept 4 dogs, plus cats! When we finally did find someone, the houses were so small, there was no way we could live there. We continued to look, and look, and look.
I was so frustrated, that every time I opened a website to look for what was available, I started having panic attacks.
We finally found a house in the next town, and put in an application. That night, the owner of this house told me we had to move by August 1, because she could not wait any longer. It seemed everything was falling into place. We were approved for the house, and were on our way to give them the deposit, when we received a text that they had rented it to someone else!
We were devastated! We were right back to square one, with less than 2 weeks to move!
I told my friend what happened, and the thought occurred to her to call a person she knew to see if they had any houses available. Surprisingly, they did! And, at a very reasonable price. It had just become available, and they have not publicized it. I could not keep myself from worrying that it would fall through before we were able to see it today.
The layout of the house is almost the same as the one we wanted to purchase! It is a little smaller, but will work. It has a fenced back yard for the dogs. And he didn’t even ask me how many I had! We signed the lease and will be able to move on time!
And, guess what is in the back yard? A tree carved into a totem pole! There is plenty of room to rebuild my crystal medicine wheel, and space for fairy gardens where my dogs won’t eat them. I know we will be very happy there.
My Angels definitely have a warped sense of humor. Maybe that is where I get mine. lol!
Yes, timing is everything!
My Angels have a very bad habit of waiting until the very last minute to produce what I need. I know they are trying to teach me to Trust, but that is not an easy lesson to learn!
So, if you are waiting for something to manifest, take a deep breath and remind yourself that timing is everything!